Blinded by Ambition, healed by time..

Its been ages since I last wrote something, esp in the public domain..

"In and Out of love baby".. Its like you know the world exists, outside the realm of ones days and night, outside ones friends and family, other than ones professional and personal life and beyond how ONE likes to confine themselves in some boundaries, THERE IS A WORLD THAT EXISTS OUTSIDE ONES CIRCLE.

Funny that this is what came to my mind now that I've finally decided to write something. May be because for last 12 months I decided that my world will be what I see and what I do. I was so adamant on training my mind not to think and feel anything what I wanted to. I've been sleeping really well, because my mind is not thinking at the exponential rate like it used to, about probabilities and possibilities, ifs and buts, do's and dont's, and all that ambiguity of life that I wanted to avoid. After my Australia trip in 2014, after getting my US work visa stamped, I had just one thing left on my mind, when am I moving to US. I did not like it much though, when I went in Feb 2014 -  probably the coldest and chilliest New York has ever been in last 4 decades. But I had this fire burning inside, how can these new people in team rob me of my opportunity, by by asking me to wait. It was not about me proving myself -  I had already proven myself a thousand times - it was about the change of realm, change of the kingdom, change of situation. No one gives a damn on why the people prior to them made some decisions, what matters to everyone is how they change the way things used to be. This is wastage of time, money, effort of all - company and the people. 

What people see is what they want to, not what they should see. We all want to train ourselves to be the slaves of our EGO and above all our BLIND AMBITION. I've been working for 6 years now, but there is one thing which has always been proven, time and again, without fail -  Human ego surpasses all that ever existed. It does not matter WHAT was done, what matters to the world is WHO has done it.  We are slaves of our ambition. We have decided what people see in us is what defines us. I know right now, no one who reads it will agree, because you'll say you are different, you don't care what this world thinks about you or how you are being perceived by those in your social or professional circle -  that's all bullshit. If one person can stand today and say they are ABOVE and BEYOND this society, I would love to speak with them and know HOW, because I've tried and failed many times.

Editing this article today, which I probably wrote some 6 months ago, I'm smiling and thinking how can I feel so strongly about things that don't matter, people who don't matter. Writing this just satisfied my Alterego.